[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat with blue eyes. Text reads: “”Well, if you’re tired why don’t you sleep?” Would never be awake.”]
I’ve gotten this increasingly more, where I’ll make some thoughtless little comment about being tired, or I’ll complain or say something about being tired, and people will be like, “Go to bed then!” And will proceed to shout at me in all caps to go to bed over and over again until I go ‘invisible’ so they think I’ve left whenever I say anything because apparently being awake when I’m tired isn’t good for my health or something?
I don’t think they understand that I am literally always tired. I am tired when I wake up, and I’m tired when I go to sleep, and I’m tired the entire time between those two times. If I slept whenever I was tired, I would never be awake. Might as well be comatose.
[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat with blue eyes. Text reads: “What doesn’t kill you, makes you wish it did”]
I love this blog because people always say “I know how you feel” but in reality they don’t. People here actually do.
I know suicide is a “permanent solution to a temporary problem”. But what do you do when your problem is chronic? I was diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease at the age of 14 in January of 2009 and I’ve had fourteen surgeries, I currently have a temporary colostomy, I’ve had over 20 kidney stones, no medications work for me, I’m chronically anemic. To top it all off I already had clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder. This is going to sound terrible, but sometimes I wish I had an illness that would either go away, or just kill me. Anything but living like this for the rest of my life.